Beliefs: Studying Without Losing Myself

When I was younger, I was deep into religion, I grew up in the Pentecostal church. A place full of all that fire-and-fervor energy. Lately, I feel the pull to return, but I want to approach it differently this time.

I’ve been drawn to the study practices of Muslims and the Nation of Islam. Not to change my faith, but to observe how they study, interpret scripture, and compare texts. Bible to Qur’an, and see for myself where I stand.

I once spoke to a member of the NOI. Their energy was persuasive, almost recruiting. and that’s not what I’m after. I don’t want a name change, street ministries, or selling fruit on corners. I don’t want to become someone who twists beliefs into blame or perpetuates stereotypes like “the white man is the devil.” That’s not who I am. I just want to study, grow, and become a better Black man with clarity, not coercion.

This is about truth, discipline, and self-sovereignty. learning without losing my agency, understanding without losing my family ties or integrity.