Last year about this time, was me going out of my mind. LOL but i'm good today. Between like May and September of last year I was all Messed up in the head. I was single and i didn't know it.. It was after September though where i Reclaimed my singleness.. I realize today that I'm better off now.
It was September 2013 where my Ex met some guy, she married hem 3 months later. Now she's having his baby. I'm happy for her.. because she's getting what she wanted out of life. the only thing I never understood is why did I have to be the one to get the shaft. No douvbt I was Wrong for looking through her emails. but dang. In a relationship it's supposed to be 1 on 1 and I didn't feel like the only one. So I made it my duty to find out... Yeah that's not cool. but that's where I felt Trapped. LOL I'm too weak to drop the ball on somebodies life. I liked helping her out and all. I liked her akot. Maybe I was delusional about some things but on my part I felt good to have a woman to communicate with that wasn't "Just a Friend" or so i thought.. When I realiezed I couldn't control the situation I backed out. remaining too busy to do things for her/with her.
Well, today, I'm Single. But I'm not Stressing behind a woman. LOL Today I'm up here thinking about "Silver Linings Playbook" that's why I posted "My Cherie Amour" lol/. Shame On ,my part. I feel like I have no reason to break from Ira, she's still my facebook friend. I'm still cool with her dad. She's really not a "Bad person" I think i can get along with her just fine without conflict.
All in all. I love myself. LOL!
It was September 2013 where my Ex met some guy, she married hem 3 months later. Now she's having his baby. I'm happy for her.. because she's getting what she wanted out of life. the only thing I never understood is why did I have to be the one to get the shaft. No douvbt I was Wrong for looking through her emails. but dang. In a relationship it's supposed to be 1 on 1 and I didn't feel like the only one. So I made it my duty to find out... Yeah that's not cool. but that's where I felt Trapped. LOL I'm too weak to drop the ball on somebodies life. I liked helping her out and all. I liked her akot. Maybe I was delusional about some things but on my part I felt good to have a woman to communicate with that wasn't "Just a Friend" or so i thought.. When I realiezed I couldn't control the situation I backed out. remaining too busy to do things for her/with her.
Well, today, I'm Single. But I'm not Stressing behind a woman. LOL Today I'm up here thinking about "Silver Linings Playbook" that's why I posted "My Cherie Amour" lol/. Shame On ,my part. I feel like I have no reason to break from Ira, she's still my facebook friend. I'm still cool with her dad. She's really not a "Bad person" I think i can get along with her just fine without conflict.
All in all. I love myself. LOL!
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