Good News & Bad News

Good News: I'll Be Moving in a New Home Soon
Good News: I Start Working Next Week
BAD News: It's On The North Side, Far from Where I'll be Working



Bad News: Bethany Has a Tumor.
Good News: Me & Bethany Have Been Together for 10 months now as of October 12th.
Bad News: I'm Currintly Assuming Bad Things about our relationship.. But I'm Trying to Let it go.. Because it ain't worth it.

Hear's The Dea with that.

Just Last Teusday (if im correct). Bethany Called and told me that Something was wrong and that she was leaking fluid from one of her breasts. I told her to go get that checked, Because thats not a good thing......... So She calls again Wednesday in the at about 2pm. .. I Knew it had to be important because we only talk after 5 or 9 at most...

Well, I Called her back & she told me that She had some BAD NEWS Unnfortunately Its a Tumor. Yep. The Doctor gave her a Mammogram and she found a lump in a similar area as the one she had before But in the other breast (yeah she had a tumor before & it was removed) .. Well .. The News didnt scare me. But she said that she was scared that it would become cancerous. I sure pray to God it isn't. .. After That We talked later.......but it was just about the new things that im getting in to & how Blessed I've been since I've been in Houston.


(Now Here Comes The Bad Part)

After That Call....... we didnt speak any time that next week Do to HER not answering her phone when i called .. heres what happened .. it was 10/8 I Called about 4 times in a row.. No Answr... the 5th time I called, The phone was answered , but when i said "Hello?" I didnt get an answer; so i listened in and all i got was a muffled sound of music and voices. i figured she'd pick up the next time i called, so i tried one more time but her phone was OFF. Unfortunately This made assume all sorts of things....... [Note: This hasnt happened to me before so i don't have a clue] .. (another thing.. The Reason I was calling her was just to make sure she was OK with the whole Health Issue)......._Back to the Story..Unfortunately This made assume all sorts of things...

1. She was probably Chillin'/Clubin with Her Cousins are a Friend (Which if she would've answered the phone & Told me I would've been Fine with it as usual. )
2. She Was Driving & Could'nt answer
3. (and last) SHE COULD BE CHEATIN' ON ME .. But Remember this is only assumptions...
   

I Didnt Pay it too much mind though untill After I came from clubbin' that night..... see, I figured that She'd probably call sometime durring the week when she isnt busy ... Untill LAST FRIDAY (10/14) ... I called Her a few times.. No Answer...... So I sent her a Text Message that said [[No Calls, No, Answers? Wutz Up Wit Dat?!, U Wrong 4 Dat.. Im Str8 Tho, *OUT*]] I Thought She was going to respond to it.. I dont even think she read it.

Well After that I called my boy Corey & Told him that I felt bad & worried and that I Also Assumed that she was cheating... just talking bluntly i said that That I Would Justbreak up with her if that was the case. but With out letting her know.... I would just try to avoid her calls & things. I also told him that, Doing that would hurt me more than it would her. Because I love that girl to death. .. See.... she knows for a fact that If we were to break up It would be have to be something serious.
at the same time I felt that It Would lead her in to believing that I'm serious about our relationship. .... So Me & Corey Just Talked and He kinda Just Incouraged me to Stand my ground and we I came to a point that I really need to have a Serious conversation with this girl on that level......

WELL!.......MORE BADNESS .. Inbetween the callsl to corey I Sent a Voice Message to Dejuan saying .. [[its over, I cant deal with it.. so if anybody asks anything.. Im not with her & you heard it from The Book]] ...Which I sent him this because I knew that he'd probably tell someone or Post on the Board that I broke up with her (or even call her to tell her what i said ) & then it'll cause Confusion and controversy (which it just may will) ... i dont think he did that though ....but that ain't the thang...
Dejuan called me back and i told him what was up ... he said that He had more to tell me about that situation & that he knew something i didnt know .. BUT .. because of who and how dejuan it. I'll just let that go .. I'll IM him to tell him That I was just playing or something... Nah.. I'll just tell him Im Straight on that note..lol..

Today after the TSU game i tried calling Bethany.. I didnt get an answer.. I tried later and she answered ... she was at a battle of the bands.. I told her what i was doing and we ended it at that for the night. .... I'll call her tomorrow to tell her that we really need to have a serious talk..about how i was feeling and some other personal issues.

See the reason is because Im trying to be Happy & be with Her.........

Ups & Downs are something i can't be goin' thru.. im 20.. our relationship is Long distance & I Trust her. I usually dont assume things like this But after Feeling played due to her lack of responding to my calls .. I just had to say something to somebody to get it out of my head.

Bethany, If you are reading this ... I Ain't Mad.. I Love You..

as for me I Just Need to stop thinking like that ... I Dont Need a Negitive to Come in between our Positivity. I want this Whole year to be Us .. I just want to see more of US

Thats me & you B.. and you know it.

Dang .. I Finished this on 10/15 at 12:59 AM .. Time Started BELOW .. .. see .. i had to think slow on this yall.......

Note From The Book .... To The Nosey People ..lol .. Nah JK .. Blogging does wonders man.. I try not to put Info Like this out But Hey.. it's my JOURNAL ..

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