I wrote this in the "Testimonies" thread on M'Sport

OKAY YALL! ... here is At firt i wrote this

how about this...

With me, Life is confusing and im still trying to find my peace. Im Currently a state of confusion. .. its been worst in the past. Life has gotten better .. but yet more confusing

When i was in high school i did great things .. .. i was in various school related programs and organizations.. some successful some failures .. but that was high school .. a great time in my life...

I'll post the rest some other time

THEN I WROTE THIS

here's some things after i got out of hs

2002 - I made gramblings band but didnt go because of my back & leg problem.. in and out of the hospital.. I found i had a pinched nerve and was told by the doc to never hold anything such as a tuba again...

2003 .. I had Surgery on my back.. and was told to "Wait it out" I had Family problems such as my older brother thinking that I was faking my pain and also trying to force me to work. ( he did me this up to katrina and didnt even believe me when i did get a job) ... I wont get too deep in to the family issues .. but around this time because I used to talk to loads of people on the fone, my dad thought I was gay cause I was on the phone so much with my Crab Brothers ... he didnt know i was on the fone with females (such as Kandace) .. .. they used t listen to my conversations and thing I was talking to boys .. Him and my older brother .. he used to listen to my phone calls and everything .. (ok, if u wanna hear this call me cause i aint sayin nomore)

2004 basically the same as 03 up untill November when i became an official volunteer in the NO public school system .. I was an Assistant Band Director at one school and Band staff at another...My brother bothered me because he hated the fact that i wasnt getting paid .. I didnt care ... Although i didnt have money nor Real clothes .. i had Fun doing what I did ... 2004 also brought Love and Confusion in my life .. I was Deeply in to a girl on here by the name of Cecily Jones .. This was until a friend wanted to become More than friendsl Bethany.... she became my FIRST girlfriend..... This Lasted All of 2005

2005 u was great.. I met many M-sporters, I Started My Blog ...i was happy altho i didnt hava real job, I had my Girl.... only to find that i had a Big Problem on my hands with her . still didnt have money. then my little brother went off to college... .. Then Katrina happened ..

after katrina 05 .. people thought i was dead, ... But Thanks to my blog, CNN and the band sites my family and I recieved Loads of donations for many people including help from online buddies .. I love every one of them and is greatful to have them. .. I got my first job while living in the Astrodome and my older brother thought i was lying and also had doubts of me working .. Family Struggled to find a home "and more but BLAH". Other than all that badness I had great times .. meeting more WEBFOLK and all...

2006 - I broke up with "That Chik" because she lied and cheated.... I realized that I had "Real friends" that I left alone years ago because of her ... Life has been going well and i feel more independant .. Im being rewarded with lots of things .. Im getting in to school .. I Found "Girlfriend"..... Those are confusing parts but they're working out for the better ..

Im still doing my bad thing "when I have it, and i want/need it .. I get it" . because i have my job and money now ..

seems like this .. In my life .. I've found that My Falls have been A big Part of My Success and I love my Confusing life; I Love "Girlfriend" I love everybody ...

its why i always say. life is like the Matrix .. Your Choices you make in the present lead up to your successes or failures in the future

Okay.. Most of This part of my life has been written in various Blog posts also.. read my archives .. you'll see what im refering to

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