The Silent Blog #2

Here we go again, On this 26th day of November I chilled BORED all day watching the kids only to be fussed at for attempting to TALK to my momma... Yeah. I was cussed out by my dad and all that other dumb stuff. All because the dog peed on my mattress.. And I wasn’t complaining I was telling her about some other stuff and he got all mad

I WAS NOT COMPLAINING!! I WAS TELLING THEM.. See This is the thing that just makes me want to get up and leave. They act like they don’t want me here and all that other good stuff..

Now he is up in here telling Larry how I been complaining.. STUPID... Man I don’t complain, I’m trying to give them my POV... They act like they don’t want me here..

I’m just about to stop responding to all of that stuff..

WATCH..

Alright, At this moment I must write about How I feel….

It isn’t funny….

Umm.. I have a headache, I ate a whole lot.. My mom calls me out my name and it makes my head hurt even worse. Now I sit here once again Kind of lonely but still…

Anyway.. Today I think I’m going to start doing something that I always hesitate to do. And that would be to Tell people how I REALLY feel when i'm commenting on something.. Usually I try to Agree with people to cease conflict of interests but I really thing I need to tell people what I think.. Why? Because basically... They are being real with me, and I’m the one that isn’t being real.. I usually comment to please folk when I don’t always have to do so… Example.. Kandace would tell me how she’d feel about something, and I’d agree with here w/o giving a reason….lol.. But I do that because I like her.. But then I need to Be more real with her at the same time… I feel that I can talk to Kandace about anything; this means I have to tell her the Truth about what I really think... Yeah It might cause a Debate, but that’s a great thing

Currently writing with a headache, I look like hairy Samoan Wrestler.. UMAGA!!! ..lol…

Let me Test my Thinking Skills..

It’s a shame when you have something on your mind that you want to get out but a headache is blocking you from doing so.. Its 11:59 December 12…. Its almost another day ..lol

Its wild I just wrote and erased something, The Light on my phone came on. I guess someone wanted to talk to me ..

Here we go..

There is something out there that bothers me

Its like a monkey on my back,

or something Following me

I guess it’s just what I need to get off my chest.... never mind

Lol I just put this down for a moment to play a few games of that game ..lol Spider

Anyway I won after 4 tries on medium… 167 moves 1133 score.. I’m out.. I got to play it again!..lol

Alright Yall..

I got a call from Trent today (Dec. 14) he Keeps bothering me about getting him his Info for his website.. I have been telling this man that I wont be able to do anything until I reach a computer, or until I can get mine online. So I talked him in to getting him his Information himself, He did that.. But he still thinks that I need to do something for him.

. I CANT DO ANYTHING... HE HAS WHAT HE NEEDS!! .. Now he wants to talk to my dad and crap As if He needs me to get him the Info. Maan.. I cant do nothing unless MY PC is online.. And the odd part is.. Now that he does have his own Info… He still needs ME to access it to show him where he needs to be .. I Tried to explain where to go .. But he doesn’t understand what I’m telling him…

Yeah he Is Mad at me.. But it isn’t my fault that he cant do it himself.. I cant help u If I cant get to my resources.. .. You Cant get mad at me for that.. He’s now Questioning my Transportation…yeah I lied to him about not having MY pc.. but I still cant Get do any work .. Its not like I have it like I had it in Houston where I was using my OWN stuff all the time.. so I had what I can.. I don’t know if yall understood that but yeah.. lol

That’s the same one who I’d rather not answer their call. Cause He acts like he demands me to do what he wants done.. I cant do that all the time man.. Yeah I hooked u up.. and got food and change and rides home .. yeah that was good thank you for that but Now man I cant do it because I don’t have the resources that I need …

Just imagine... I repeated everything to him about what he needed to do but he still didn’t understand and he faults me for that .. he acts like I did something wrong .. man.. I should stop answering his call.. But man.. Iono yall.. It’s a shame that’s all I can say about that.

Seems like Cheddar is awaiting someone’s entrance.. lol He’s sitting here looking’ at the door…lol

Umm.. My Brother and my nephew are leaving.. so is my mom and my sister.. I’ll be here by myself where I can get ONLINE…. When I get by my sisters house Im going to have to upload this. Because it’s a whole lot of stuff..lol.

It’s wild, Today’s the last day of my billing cycle and I have went up just a little more that what I’ve already paid. Lets see yall.. I think I’m just going to stop talking bad of Bethany.. which I really hadn’t been but u know. I just think that Its time to really let it go. No like if she wanted to talk a whole night on the phone Still, I’d probably do it. She seems like she’s cool to talk to right now. But I feel kind of weird still because of things that happened. I think I should just put all that to past and just thank her for wasting her time with me when she really didn’t have to. Yall know that I was loving that girl..lol Most of my blog in 05 was about Her .. It’s a New Year, I need a New Life, Start it off Right, I think we should Be and stay friends.. That’s that real deal Holyfield right there ..lol.

My aunt called, She said she thought she saw me on the news, it was something bad.. Oh well Glad it wasn’t me. Glad she called to cause I wouldn’t want her to worry. I think that It’s time to get things together.

I need to Avoid Trent for good, but I just don’t know how. I gave him all he wanted but he’s still on me.. I hope he doesn’t call tonight. He thinks I’m lying when I say that my dad works late. I’m serious. He wants to know what Im hiding. Like I said in the blog Yesterday (the 18^th of Dec) I am not hiding anything but the fact that I have a computer near me. ..Lol I don’t want my dad to talk to him because He’ll ask me to bring me to a computer.. (or something about his site) then my dad will say “well we can do it from here”.. But then that’s what will make him call me all the time. I wish I could just Block the numbers …I’m actually Tired of his calls… It’s not funny when I‘m holding the phone and he’s like “explain this to me again”. How am I going to tell him when I don’t have the info he has? .. its crazy man

 .. Let me get off of that .. lol

Next year I’m going to have to give people their space, then let them call me… I think im going to be going to school in the fall and not the spring, because It’ll be hard.. Life is hard yall.. Why do we need transcripts to accomplish goals. Im going to Re Apply for Vista and just Work to make a living, do what best for the youth. Do something. Iono.. I need to get Educated also. lol

I guess my thoughts wont let me right. Iono. Its crazy man. I wonder what folk are going to say about my facebook thing. In fact. I need to like facebook to my blog. I sure would like another mask similar to the mask that I wore on that picture. I’d have to probably go to a Vintage Costume store to find a better looking knights helmet/mask. Those things are cool to have.

I kinda feel like Doogie Houser (or how ever its spelled) , you know like when he’s Typing out his life In a journal. Good Stuff eh.. I guess I’ll be on to the Fourth page starting after This.

Not..

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