and I guess its the way it is

Im Good .. but a way. I aint all that happy about it. But basically I talked to Kandace overnight and yeah it was usual convo. but after our talk with Tremaine. (still craziness) .. it got somewhat serious and well... Yeah.. after that. I can say that It didn't make me feel that great afterwards but Its the truth. As far as she is concerned. She's partly got me figured but My Opinion Im Still not sure what to look for> I cant tell folks what i want but i know i cant have it all at once. LOL. Here's tha deal. Kandace Assumes that all i want is a "Dime piece" Girl that i can take home to the family. And well. I told her that thats not true. and Its not the only thing that attracts me. But anyway. She said that she thinks that i need not to Tense up when im talking to people. and im like Ahh man.. I cant help that Its just me. Bad enuff I have a hard time getting me feelings out ..LOL


Anyway .. Yeah.. Kandace Doesnt feel the same way about me as I do to her. and she knows why and she explained it on he phone, its mostly true. because Tell ya da truth. after all these years of knowing Kandace, She grew on me. overtime the Physical side came to light and thats where it all really began. .., Still. I guess man.. Kandace is my buddy and she;; always be. But It just hurts to REALLY know that she just wouldnt go with me. BUT HEY! .. I still will forever mess with her about it ..LOL. In other words. I talked to her again about other girls and things and so on and so on. and I guess she summed it up from there. Because to tell you the truth. It started because i told her how my boy Tremaine always try to hook me up with these Beastmaster-like girls and well I just aint having it man..... THATS where Kandace really got her words from .. I had to tell her that All I want Is a Girl with a Face and A good head on her shoulders.. so she started naming these girls and in My Opinion. Yeah I'd Date them because they aint Ugly by a long shot. But from what i know.already One of them has this crazy additude. The other is cool. and the other is my buddy but i just couldn't mess with... Mhhh.. wow man I guess thats how Kandace sees me.. Even for Kandace, I think she's a great person and she aint the most beautiful Girl in the world But I love her just that much....LOL.

In All Truth. I guess I'd love to mess with Kandace and I know that will never happen.
As for me, Im Just trying to be a Visionary because everything is possible. It aint my fault that she aint seeing it now ..LOL With all that said It Hurts to know that She REALLY meant what she said. but as much as she wants me to give up. I can't. LOL It just don't happen like that. And still. All I want is to be happy. Yeah I Am Picky as far as girls go. its just that I dont have an Idea of EVERYTHING I want in a girl. But all in all. I know what Everything I want is In Kandace and She Knows it but it she just doesn't want it that way. All I want is to to have somebody to call my own, at least for the moment ..

It's wild wild man.. it just is.