The Day I Overheated.

So, A few days after moving in. We didn’t have air conditioning in the home, thus hindering our ability to work on things. it was tough. we didn’t have fans or anything.
One of those nights I decided to catch some air on the porch ..My Mom had left with my sister to go Bathe at the other home before we give the keys back. The other home still had hot water, as well as an air conditioned home even though the power was finally off.. The plan was for my sister to bring my mom there to take a shower and then get some food to eat for the evening.

My dad was gone elsewhere, My Brother was in the house and my nephew was outside talking on the phone and pacing the street. I was just hot,  I had a damp towel over my chest while sitting in a chair shirtless on the front porch. So I fell asleep trying to cool off. At some point I woke up feeling queasy.I felt bad but I knew that standing would just cause me to “Struggle puke” while dizzy, so I just dozed back off at attempts to ignore the feeling. Suddenly i woke up draping in sweat. It was like a water fall.  I felt so bad but I couldn’t say anything.

I then positioned myself  on the steps so I could be seen by whoever right away just incase I black out.  I tried yelling my nephew and brothers name, but to no avail
I think I blacked out again.. Then I looked up and my Dad was there! ..I asked my brother to grab me a water.. I then went over to the car and basically Cried because I felt as if I was dying. I had never felt this way before.

I was Thankful to be able to cool down.  I then was able to type to my family what I had experienced and I got a call from my eldest sister. she was genuinely concerned… My mom and Sis roll up to come get myself and my brother, They also had tacos. I was still feeling bad but I was also glad to have the food.

My mom was acting as if I did something wrong.. My Older brother called me upset saying “Why would you Write something like that In A group text. You know everybody think you too dumb to take care of yourself…” he continued to ramble on,.,., Meanwhile I’m being yelled at by my mom for the very same reason but rushing me to exit the home  to go shower… I was able to do all of these things. but Just t hose moments were overwhelming in itself. ..

Later that evening after a disagreement with my mom, It was stating again .. “YOU ACT LIKE YOU DYING, WHY WOULD YOU WRITE THAT..”” … I remained silent and went  into my room to find as much peace as I could…

This is a rarity. I don’t Normally get into it with family and I’m not disrespectful to them at all, But I am constantly being shunned away, and this is has become my motivation to Get away from here.. Man’ I’m 34, i shouldn’t be here anyway…..