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Probably wasn’t meant for me to go

Grooveshark never sent the tickets I won to Voo Doo Experience. But That’s okay, I was good all day. It wasn’t a place for me. I was able to eat out with some friends after church. as well as catch some items on sale at Walgreens too! I think that it was a good day in my opinion.

Now I have to work on some footage to put on DVD since “The Fool” finally  was used his money to get something. Just thinking of all the money I recently spent on him. The sad part is that he feels that he does things FOR ME when that’s NOTHING compared to what I do for FREE… crazy how it brings me back to that area of the bible I read earlier. but I won’t mention it here.

I see things happening in my favor in the upcoming months. Shout out to Jesus on that note!

Feeling Good.

After talking to Ben earlier today (technically yesterday) about how a facebook friend (Aaron).. asked about Luke 14:26 because he did not understand it.. So I looked it up.. I explained to him my point of view … Then to get a better understanding I read the whole chapter. it was revealed to me that what I had told to Aaron was written in the same context directly  at Luke 14:33  when I informed Ben of This.. He replied, “WOW That’s The Living Word”.

That was so Amazing to me that I had to Keep reading, until I ended up reading through 4 Chapters. It was very refreshing. A few of the stories I had already heard.  some were more revealing in incline with the chapter I had started out reading. it was a great Revelation to me as it also connected to myself as a child remembering hearing these  and reading the stories. But to have the knowledge that I have now and reading it all is very Refreshing!

As I read Aloud to my mom, I was Feeling it because it made me feel good that I have this light of God within me!  It feels good, I must continue!.

What was wild to me about it all is that, throughout each situation, God told  stories to these people as example of why you should believe in him and respect him. why you should respect the laws. it went even into the ideas of the beginnings and the ends. very Refreshing.

The Irony of it all is that It even relates to some of the things Ben spoke on in church a few weeks back… it goes to show you that the word is Re-occurring and Reassuring.

I had a great time discussing these chapters with my mom. It made me feel good. I have to read more to get more. it feels good to read  and understand. it’s a Great feeling to experience God In action!

Somewhere Friday

   

  This Past week I’ve worked on a lot of footage, just to get it online. Some I Had to downgrade, others I put on there at full 1080p.  Today I’m supposed to be recording a middle school clinic. There will also be a game tonight at Behrman,  I have no clue if I’ll be able to make that happen right due to the weather though.

    I Talked to a Kwame, a Fellow Alumni of the K, He wants to do some big (yet small time) things regarding broadcasting. I agreed to make that happen. I have transportation issues, but hopefully I can make that happen next Friday.  Because of this, I’ve been trying to think up a new name to throw on my videos. I’m good with the JMC Book Media Creations, yet I think it’s going to grow old. I’ll think of something Fresh someday.

    Other than that, I’ve been looking into Getting a mic and a Flash for the T2i, That way I can stop using the video camera altogether. (well at least that’s the plan).  If not, I’ll continue using the both the T2i and the HF20.  My coursing hipped me to a Flash which was on ebay. yet its more expansive on amazon. I may have to look into it all some more.

      Tonight, Karr vs 35.. or at least I think That’s who’s playing. I hope this game is good. If It rains, I ain’t doing anything.  That’s all I really have to say about that.

Note From The Book

Congrats To Me | I’m Going To Voodoo Experience

 

I told my sister a few days ago that I registered to win tickets and About an Hour ago I got this message!

POW!! I’M GOING!! Thank You GROOVESHARK!

Well, I think I’m good…

• I scratched my sideburn and suddenly i saw Blood.. I washed it off, i guess it was a skeeto bite or something. smh.
• After sending her that letter she got back with me with a brief answer but i totally understand.
• I think i may have to stop jumping to conclusions when it concerns her
• man.. i’ve  gotta get something to make this bump cease to exist..
• I’m tired..
• I dropped change trying to move my pants *smh*
• Oh man I saw that video and spotted her from a distance.. wow that girl has a great body!..
• there’s so much more to this, but i gotta stop here.
• I’m about to lay it down..

Thinking of My Brother

        

Jeremiah 4:19 Oh, my anguish, my anguish! I writhe in pain. Oh, the agony of my heart! My heart pounds within me, I cannot keep silent. For I have heard the sound of the trumpet; I have heard the battle cry.

I Had a Brother named Jeremiah who died of a heart issue when I was in 3rd grade, he was a 1 year old only. I love him. I miss him. Sometime I wonder how he would have turned out as a grown man. I could only Imagine how life could have been  I could imagine him following in Me & Jaime’s foot steps.  Had only he lived.. yet He left the world Because his heart would not let him live.

To think that the That His last Cry, He called out my name. makes me feel good, yet it saddens me somehow because I never got to truly say goodbye. He was just Here & then He was gone. I remember getting the news and Crying… Hard.. I missed him then, I miss him now.  but this world was not meant for him.

Now I know That Scripture has little to do with what I made reference to but It made me think that’s all that matters right now.

I Guess That’s How It Is.

Yesterday, I went through a lot of Verbal abuse at the hands of Ignorance. but I took it all in stride because at the end of the day. I know my work will be beneficial to me as it is to others.  There’s no reason you should be like that with me, when in your part, I’m doing you bigger favors. 

You ask so much of me, sometimes Demanding things you can do for self, yet refuse to do.. and you wonder why When I get mine, You’re left out.  Yeah I got into an event free. it doesn’t always happen that way though.  You call me a Bum but I ask nothing of you.  Maybe if you stop begging me for things, What Is given to me. will be given to you as well.

I Didn’t see you come into that building today, Why is that? .. your mind isn’t right man, you need to get that straight.

Be Grateful for what you have. and that which you desire will be issued unto you. 

Note From The Book

To That Girl Rite There

       

Hey there, How are ya! it was great to see you again today. I really wanted to talk to you face to face about this but I didn’t want to break your concentration from the team or anything. (yet i know i could have talked to you, but i just would have felt funny doing that in front of them folks ..lol………)   But really though…  Just to get directly to the issue.

      Honestly, I’ve tried my best to talk to you and I feel like you’ve been ignoring me, it’s gotten me upset and maybe I shouldn’t be. and If I’m wrong for jumping to conclusions Then I apologize.

      Out of respect, I keep my distance to allow you to live your life. I know you’ve got your squad, schooling, and every thing in life that you go though and deal with daily. and also I know that you have your social life, your family and friends and even dating for that matter .. it’s all good with me. you got to live your life. and I want you to be happy. But I also want to have you to talk to.

     I just hope that you understand that I care about you dearly and its the reason I wrote about my feeling here in the first place. They’re just that.. Feelings. With that said,  I feel that it could be beneficial to both of us if we continue to communicate on a normal basis.  it’s all i ask of you.. hopefully we can act upon it.

That’s what friends are for…

The Book

Nine years ago around this time

I was walking around wobbling in pain with a broking back. Every now and then I feel pain but it’s nothing to keep me down. the only thing I regret about it all is the fact that I gained  60 pounds since then. I would like to lose that same 60 someday. Hopefully that time will come in my future.

When It comes to working, it’s the reason I refuse to do Hard Labor. I do not want to reinjure my back. I think it  got messed up from complications of over activity without actual self control while in middle school.   I could recall a number of things that made  it happen. but I won’t acknowledge them just yet. … In fact I will.

I’ve always had a problem with my left leg, I was never able to acknowledge it as a problem until i started asking around in high school. But Here are a few of the things that I either overlooked or it forced me to acknowledge the issue… or at least things i recently remember that may have caused the issue to worsen.

• Playing Football in the Project Courts

Everybody new That I had a weak leg, they (nor I) knew I had a weak back.. so they used the leg thing to their advantage..  and knock me down with random leg taps basically.

• Getting Randomly Tackled In Middle School One day

Back when I was in Middle school, there was this “game” the bigger guys used to play because they thought it was funny. That was to Tackle people at random, without warning. I was one of their Victims. I remember not being able to get up on my feet a minute after that  happened

• Playing Wresting In Middle School

One of my past time favorites which may have caused the injury to worsen.  We used to do this all the time. the bad part is, As a fat dude, folks would jump all over me at once… I don’t necessarily remember being “down and out” after a Match.. or after a random “happening”

• A Jumping Bag Incident

Back in the day, I used to jump around in those things like No tomorrow when we had them at partys.. doing front flips,.back flips.. side flips.. FLIPPY FLIPS! lol.. and one day I Do remember stopping because my lower back started to feel funny..  That was the day I stopped jumping in them forever.. I believe that this incident was the trigger for what was to occur later in my life

• A Biking Accident.

One day While Riding my bike by the Museum In City Park, I Hit a Parked Car  after the Wind Blew My hood over my face.. (yeah go ahead and laugh, i do to when i think about it) … While Laying there for a while, A skater walked by and asked me if I was Okay…  I was riding along with my brother and a friend of ours. They came to check on me as well.  I got up maybe a minute later and kind of apologized to the man who's car I hit. (he was sitting in his vehicle) .. I rode home but I felt crazy, so I went to lay down.

…Crazy Right? ..I know..

• BEING IN BAND

i started playing sousaphone in middle school, We were always asked to run with our horns, or do crazy exercises with or horn in our hands a few times I did outrageous thins with the horn like Back Bends. at least until the day The horn fell completely apart. while we were practicing a field show. One of the things that Triggered my acknowledgement of injury was while duck Walking up a Ramp.. I was in 8th grade. The Junk hurt badly, I cried…

There was also a number of times where I’ve did exercises ups in high school, and my leg completely gave out…  yet nothing was ever wrong when we ran…  Everybody knew I walked funny in high school. they used to say i walked like Mankind from the WWE. ..smh… But it was true. Little did they know that I was IN PAIN. and I lived

AFTER ALL OF THAT

It wasn’t Until After I Graduated when I started to Feel it more and more, and I started walking extremely badly a point where I never left the house. some time that summer, I went to see a physician.  They though i had a form of Scoliosis, that wasn’t the case. After going to the hospital I found that it was a Pinched Nerve causing all that pain. All due to a herniated disc. I got it repaired nearly 5 months after finding it out, that's the crazy part. 

After getting it repaired I was told to lose weight as well as to do Nothing that could cause it to get out of place. I was 240 Then, I’m 300 Now. Shame right?…. a time after that I tried to get social security. Didn’t happen. so I just didn’t work at all…  When Katrina Hit. It slipped my mind to even think about telling people of that situation first hand. Why? because I had a Job. and after that I got in school and joined the band. I told folks about my issue but still, it didn’t hinder my performance. .. well maybe a little but not causing pain.

I was not supposed to do that stuff at all.. But I’m glad i did take that chance. I don’t regret it, but i DO owe the school some change, Hopefully someday I’ll be able to pay it all within the next 2 years.

but back to my point…  Folks don't understand that I still deal with the Complications of pain as it relates to the  surgery and the problem itself. sometimes I wake up in pain and wont move because of back strain. or because just like now, The weather’s gone back to cold temperatures.  and it all falls on my lower back… when it hurts i do nothing.. and since i’ve been back in N.O. I’ve done just that… Nothing… It’s time for me to make moves and stop worrying about my back though. Live like a man my age is supposed to be living.

Sometimes I wish other folks could feel my Pain.

Note From The Book

Had To clean the Iron

That sucka was dirty!. I was ironing a shirt of mine when I saw a stain.. so I decided to throw some stain remover on it and rub it in a little.. Then I put the iron on.. and there was a BIGGER STAIN!.. smh.. so I got the stain out on my own.. but after that I decided to use that same stain remover “Shout” to be exact.  To clean the iron.. lol..

I started wiping away and loads of “Brown” came off of it. That was crazy to me that an Iron could get like that… the good thing is that there wasn’t any of that hard sticky stuff like on the old irons we had…next time

And The Fool Calls

now he mad that I didn’t do the event… he wanted me to catch a ride with walker so that he wouldn’t have to come pick me up at the house. well hey I didn’t do the event. it’s not like I’m obligated to doing these things.  dude calls cussing me out yet he wants me to pay for his tab on food.. aight… This will be the last time  I aint doing anything for the next event…  i got things to do on those dates.

Why do folks come to me asking for freebies like if I got money.. smh..

I Didn’t Go

• Got up at 9
• Hopped in the shower
• Ironed Clothes..
• Now It’s 11:35

Where I was supposed to be Already started and is happening now. Therefore i’m not going.  Aside from that. I was supposed to attend John Mac’s homecoming but a Stupid Fool is coming to get me at 1. yet he’s not leaving the city til 4. why is that? out of Dumbness maybe? ..lol 

We’ll for now, I’m waiting…

So I was supposed to be going somewhere but…

It’s 3am I don’t think I’m gonna make it… But with that said. I think im gonna log off here and take a shower anyway. cause I got things to do. and that’s all I have to say about that.

Cats always want me to do stuff but act like it’s a problem when I ask them to do things for me.. smh… as always .. but I’m done..

Tomorrow will be a very busy day

I’ll be out from Morning til evening at events. I hope this all goes right too, I don’t want to end up losing anything. I have to get some stuff off my cameras to upload more stuff. I may or may not. do that now though. yeah It’s likely that I will.

Hopefully everything will go right on my part. AHHH! my head is going to explode ..lol j/k lets hope things go smoothly for The Book Eh?! LOL! I Love myself!

Here and Now….

I'm Bored.. But I did make it to The Mac today. It was nothing big but I’m glad I was able to meet Chris, a minister here in the city. I only talked to him briefly. I left halfway through practice. but I was able to

I was able to talk to Mr. Goodwin for a hot minute. Glad to have seen him after all these years man. It’s something how you see people around the way. That was my old principal from Jr. High School .. I was glad to see him… lol

I Guess I’m Ready

I’ll likely be out here by 3pm.  If not I aint going anywhere. Kinda Dangerous man, just Dangerous. Folks are getting killed left and right and I refuse to have to witness death in mid day. or even to embark on a journey and meat my demise… I like to walk but walking has become dangerous. and that’s sad to say.

Keep Watching

And Waiting… because I Ain’t saying Nothing’ ..LOL!

GOOD MORNING MY NEIGHBORS!

Tonight I’ll see myself at the Mac, That’s all I’m going to say to that. I gotta show up at least on today (Hopefully) .. Man I gotta get the hair cut too. but then again, it’s cold.   I’ll leave that alone.

Dah Well… We shall Overcome…  I’m Out!

Re-Elect BOOK 2012 President of the Universe!

Looking at you…

 

    I’m sitting here facebooking and I ran across a picture. it was the first time we had seen each other since I was there. You have the biggest smile on your face. beautiful, just beautiful. I was glad to see you, glad to take a pic with you too.  It still think it’s crazy that it made your dude upset, but you and I both know it was nothing for him to be upset about.

       Another thing is that  it reminded me of was the fact that you were the very reason I came to Houston the next time, just to see you, just to be there. just to be a supportive friend. I wish I had more friends like you. You make me feel good…. Seriously ..lol

    What’s wild about that shot though is…. I look crazy but you look Good. Folks assumed i was gripping ya butt, my hand wasn’t even on you..lol …. liked it when folks assumed you were my girl. in a way  I wish you were/ LOL I mean hey we spend so much time on the phone when we do talk. the coolest thing is that we hold healthy conversations. I love that. If I could' find somebody that can equally impact me as you did. I would be one happy man.

That’s All I have to say about that…

In Light of All That Is Good.

     I was given the honor of being able to the very beginnings of a new church of a friend of mine, Pastor Ben Andrew. It’s amazing to see how the brother has grown in Christ and is now feeding the people the word of God.  During the first service, I took it upon myself to work their camera. They were in a rush to begin and were kind of frustrated as well for a first day. It was a big day & a great day as well. 

      Last Sunday I was on a roll with my camera, I had a few issues with recording on my Tripod so I invested in a Monopod. and today I’ll be able to test that out by attending my nephew’s football game. which reminds me that I have something i need to do!. .. but first I must continue…

I Recorded the full service basically and folks are demanding More! I’ve even had a few bad seeds sprout within my recent postings to say negative things.  Example, yesterday a Satanist subscribed to me on YouTube. The irony is that just today a man of God added me on Facebook Crazy, but it is what It is.   Hopefully my YouTube postings will change the lives of somebody.  I’m just glad to know that They appreciate it.

         Between The Start and now, Benjamin and I have talked via Facebook / Phone as it relates to Us (his friends) being there in support of him. I told him that I’m glad to see that they’re also here. but I hope they get something out of it, not only doing it because we were all High School Friends, but coming to church to learn to better their relationships with God.

       Same goes for me, Because Ben Knows that I really haven’t been a church goer since childhood. I Attended Apostolic Outreach Center  (AOC) as a child, but there was a point where we eventually stopped going as a family, much of that was due to transportation.  but by the time was old enough to make that decision to attend by my own means, I didn’t go.

     Even up to 6 years ago while living in Texas I had my reasons and excuses for not attending church. I’ve even written about it in past blog entries.  much had to do with travel, Other times I've said that i don’t “need” church due to how it was thrown upon me.  I was Lying to myself, I needed church then as much as I WANTED it  when i was a kid…  so, now i see them all as excuses.

     Although I still consider AOC my home church due to the things I’ve learned there. I’m glad to be a Member of the Hospital of Grace Christian Church, Not Only because The Pastor is a friend of mine. But because The church is easy access, and It’s of the same denomination as AOC which is Pentecostal.

      Aside from that, I have a great hope in the future of this church and it’s likely I’ll still be a member years from now.  For me, Being able to attend  is wonderful.  Especially when you’re able to openly converse about God with the fear of rejection from your peers. as well as meeting new people within the house of God, t’s like a renewal of my faith. or new beginning of a Journey, A Refresher if you will.

I’m Glad.. That’s all I really have to say about it!

The Book

We Are Aware of the Madness, But Are We Really Stopping Anything?

   We as a people tend to march in or rally support of things that eventually become movements. mainly it’s all to show awareness of  that which we care about or could care less about whether socially, politically, Nationally, locally etc.

     There are the Occupy Everything movements, This month we had National Night Out Against Crime; There’s also  Breast Cancer Awareness Month.  people are rallying,  marching or doing things to support the cause, Why? basically to show they care.  But what does it really do aside from giving folks a false sense of true community activism or self-worth for that matter.

    For example. Night Out Against Crime was supposed to be a day to NETWORK with your neighbors, law enforcement and city leaders. by holding meetings to discuss what can be done to prevent crime & violence in the city or  on your streets. that’s The LEAST you could do as a community.

     Truth is, On a large scale, all that goes on is a big party, concerts and music and fun. which is all good for the kids, but to EDUCATE as they play or have fun would make the situations better.

For Breast Cancer Awareness Month: You wear pink to show that you’re down for the cause. But are the proceeds of your pink purchase going to the research for a treatment or cure? … No, you don’t know?  well, why wear pink?  …If you’re going to acknowledge the month, you might as well make a donation rather than going to get a pink outfit from the store..

The key word in "Activism"  ACT means DO SOMETHING TO SUPPORT THE CAUSE!.

The Book

Just When I Thought It Was Safe To Send A Messege

Come on Facebook you can’t just Go Down!… I still don’t have the New Facebook everybody’s complaining about lol  .. Dah well..

No Need to Pay Me Back

You Know, There are a number of people who owe me money, In some cases I’ve asked about it after prolonged situations of not worrying about it. Some have even reminded me that they owe me and have offered to repay when they have it. and then there are those who I do things for and I never get anything in return.  Usually I’m the one coming out of my pocket with the greater expense. yet I’m never paid back or even thanked at times.… I’m Easy Access, and I do Need the money, but you know what.  They don’t need to pay be back…

It’s on my mind now simply because I’m thinking of it, it’s why i’m writing here now. but otherwise I don’t even care anymore. Why?, Because I’ve got a feeling that I' may prosper in a wealth of some kind  I just have that feeling. Hopefully  what ever that is I’ll be into and eventually reap the benefits. In my hopes I’d say It beter be financial. other than that. It would be great if it was a Physical or even mental refresher. Hopefully a good wind blows in my direction. I will succeed!

Note From The Book

Randomness Saturday 3:30 am

• I lost 10 Pounds on the "They Ain't Got No Real Food In This House" Diet.
• I Think It’s a great thing too
• I finally put those pics up from That Event.
• I’m still backtracked
• I haven’t given this folks pics they asked me to do yet.
• I was paid for it but I have to get those back to them.
• No Like I was upset today.
• But From what I see, I aint the only one..LOL!
• I’m A Beast with it…
• Here’s a Sign..LOL

• I’ve decided to renounce my throne.
• I have fun being random .. Signs that I’m not Serious at all
• Sometimes It’s A bad thing.
• I need a good female in my life.
• I think I’m good with all my hunnies though.
• Am I Done… yeah… LOL

I’ll Be Back Later..lol

And I’m Here

I’m actually waiting for my nephew to come over. I might as well start on these videos. It’s very hard to sit here inside and be unoccupied when I could be at somebodies football game having a good time. especially in light of what’s going on with me mentally right now.

I believe That now’s the time to let the past stay in the past, Long for the future rather than Nostalgia. because what once was is no more and likely will never be again. I tend to ask myself, Why Do I Even Try? …but I get nowhere. Talking to folks help, but it’s limited.  I know It’s crazy that I’m still on this subject, but it matters to me just that much.
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Earlier I mentioned that I talked to two People. One of Them was Mike, A Friend of a Friend my buddy JJ who I tend to socialize with online regarding band / dance.  I told him of the issue, hen asked something that made perfect sense.  It was Just A Rhetorical Long winded Question / Statement. I’ll probably mention this tonight to Jo too. 

That Question was this: Why is it that I can easily Communicate with one of the Hottest Former NFL Cheerleaders on Average, but I can’t reach my Ex? I could sent a Fax, Email, Skype, Twitter, Facebook. Sign Language EVERYTHING to JJ and she’d  respond abruptly, Why? because she’s a good friend.  At the Same Time I can not get though to Bethany when I really want to talk to her because she will not respond.

 It makes me want to distance myself from her, unless she calls me or something. I’m tired of being shunned in light that she actually travels here (and is here today). Yet you can’t even Talk to me? She Didn’t even contact me to say she was in town.  So Much for Trying to be a friend, Right?
…
The Book

Now That The Experiment is Over

I Can go back to being Me… lol

Basically, I made a few Calls and Text to random chicks I know and I got abrupt responses and even held long conversations.  Yet I’ve steadily been ignored by Her…. Now She’s in N.O. but I bet she won’t contact me.  At this point. I’m done.  I think its pretty messed up. I sent her a text this morning at 1am. over 12 hours have pasted I could have gotten something by now. I’m just saying.

At this point I’m done.. I’ll leave the pic up for a while. but that’s all. It’s not worth a try if I can’t get anywhere trying to communicate with her.  Even if I sent her a letter she wouldn’t respond. WHY?!

I talked to a friend of mine about it. in fact. 2 of them and I basically got the same thing out of them. and you know.. I think I’ll just leave it alone.

Took a PC Speed Test

 

Just because someone asked me what my PC speed was, and here’s what they came up with.

I got a Grade B, that’s faster that 74% of the US… great right?! lol

I’ll Just leave it alone.

It seems as though that I’ve tried numerous times as a refresher to myself, just to hold a conversation. Yet I feel as though I’m being put off & slightly ignored. I think it’s pretty messed up simply because just a few days ago I told her that I’d call her more. But the reason I don’t has always been the same. she seems as though she never wants to be bothered. I’d rather her call me anyway.

Being that I know it won’t happen. I’ll just leave it alone and let it all go.   Maybe I’ll talk to her when she’s ready. For me, It’s hard trying to hold a conversation with someone who does not respond as if they’d like to continue the conversation. On my part, I shouldn’t even try to continue.

  I think all females do it but in this case it’s excessive. It’s like talking to yourself and maybe even putting yourself off as an annoyance. well hey, it annoys me when I don’t get a response sometimes.

It’s hard trying to talk to somebody you want to talk to and be very open to when they seem like they don’t want to be bothered. yet it’s the same the other way around. because there are females who  want to associate with me that I refuse to give the time of day. but usually its because I can’t relate to them.

I guess that’s just the way it is though

It really does…

Feel Like I’m talking to a Brick Wall.  It never fails. The person who a really feel the need to talk to just seems like she does not want to be bothered with me. why? man.. I should just stop trying  because man it’s confusing. I feel mislead at times because of this.  All I ask for is conversation.. why can’t I get that?

Almost Lost’em

Here’s a Photo of Bethany and Myself from This past weekend’s Battle of The Bands in Jeanerette. 

After Originally Uploading these pics, I deleted them all from my card.  Directly afterwards I rushed in to find the deleted data because The photo Above along with many others were not uploaded from the PC… The Good thing is I was able to Recover The Pictures.

Hoping this will never happen again.

So Many Things Run Through My Mind

And this Blog is the place to write those thoughts down. Yet I haven’t been blogging like I really should be. I guess its time for me to cut out all the many distractions and do as I’m supposed to do. maybe I’ll feel better about myself and then feel the need to blog when the time comes.

To Do is Just as Important as To Be… and I Must Do To Be! LOL

IONO.. I know that was random but it’s just how I feel.

I think its funny that I’ve gotten no call from ole girl. I think that it sucks that as soon as things seem to get good, I have to back off. otherwise I always feel played in the end.  I just might have to post that picture early though…

I mentioned this on Facebook yesterday and Went in to tears… Earlier yesterday I took a walk from Church to My old neighborhood. It made me feel old, but it also gave me time to think, remember and take pictures.

Before I made it to my destination. I stopped by my grandma’s house where my uncles live. I didn’t walk in the back of the house because when I reach the room it saddens me because my grand parent are not there. usually my grand parents are sitting in the room (or on the porch) and the house is always full. Now days that house is empty.. sux but its life.

Oh wow.. this fool T called me just now and said  ..”She wasn’t that fine in person dawg” … LOL Boooo! hater….lol   I introduced him to Bethany the other day and  when he told me that I said. man she was always real skinny tho man..LOL  he was like “always  got excuses” ..  I Never said she was fine… LOL those were their thoughts due to her pics.. I told him that  she was a dancer she always had a slim build. 

But his opinion is nothing big, I think Bethany looks better than any of the girls I’ve seen him with. LOL but that’s just my opinion..LOL

I mean hey.. I was glad to see her though. it’s crazy man.. just crazy..lol

Someday I’ll find somebody.. that’s all I have to say about that..

Patience is a Vulture

Some folks act like they can’t wait for things, so they ask and ask and ask and then demand and even get mad as if I’m obligated too serve them.

I started the Bar Page in the light that I’ll be posting pics to advertise the bar.  I was asked 4 times why didn’t a pic, or when am I going to finish uploading the pictures.. or when I’m going to load the new pics.. they don’t understand that this is a business of patience. and at the same time. you’re not paying me. so wait and don’t ask. that’s my case ..lol

Great Weekend on my part.

Aside from the fact that I got NO sleep LOL. I was able to attend some band events,  one was a parade & football game, the other allowed me to reacquaint with Bethany. Felt really good too. I had expected it for 2 days prior due to a phone call, but I was pretty happy.  I also attended a party in honor of my cousin Chanel who was killed in 2007

I got a chance to see some great bands as well as meet their directors/ What was new to me is, I have a cousin in marching band I formally met his mom at the event. that’s a great thing.  uhhh… yeah it was a long day because I didn’t get much sleep. nor did I eat.

Today on the other hand, I attended Church. My brother came in town. and I got to take a classic walk back around my hood. It made me think… I snapped a few pics while doing so. .. life passes.. im glad I do take pics. it’s like cherishing the moment as it happens and reliving it through a frame.

Good times coming up back there tho .. I had more to say, but I don’t know how to get that out yet.. but oh well..LOL

After over 5 years We meet again.

Saturday I reacquaint with Bethany. good thing I called her earlier, hadn’t I done that it would have been more of a shocker.  We both are excited about seeing each other. It’s great that we do keep up with each other.
She told me about an issue with she got cleared with her baby’s dad.  I’m happy she was able to get that done.  I told her that I hope she can find somebody willing to take care of her needs because I don’t want to see her dealing with someone similar.

Crazy things man.. crazy things …

Printer Fail

So, on the day I decide to print photos.. I ended up shredding them all. I was hoping to have them for the dude after like yesterday. but it didn’t go as planned. I started printing at about 9pm… I cleaned the header till it couldn’t be cleaned anymore. No help.. New Printer coming soon.

I saw the dude yesterday and I told him I’d have it friday .. smh.. well whoopty doo its Friday… I’ll hold off until the printer is here.

What Do You Bring To The Table?

I was watching  Tough Love on VH1, it’s a pretty good show. Basically the host is trying to help find these women a man, while also trying to guide them on how to make it happen. The problem is that these women are all fixed upon there own superficial preferences to the point that they totally refuse to acknowledge their own flaws. this show exposes these woman for the kind of person they are, which could possibly be a turn off to men.

On The show I saw yesterday, The girls went out on dates with men who may or may not fit their taste. in the Midst of there dates. Steve  (the host) decided to Public information about each girl on every TV in the bar. The Girls were all embarrassed behind their Extra Baggage  being displayed…

Much of the things shown were of things women would not have said or shown to any person who walks in to their lives.  All Things like Naked Pics , Facebook pictures, stuff from past relationships,  Past occupations, Mug shots, Twitter/Facebook posts  etc.…  I LOVED IT!

The women all hated being put on the spot like that, but they were in a position where they were going to be regardless of the situation. They all felt like It shouldn’t have been displayed publically, saying it wasn’t the proper time & place for stuff like that.

Why are these women single?.. Well Steve basically called them their own worst enemy… LOL

When they got feedback from the guys who dated them. most were pretty okay. with the women. but there were a few things that some of them didn’t like about the women of the house.

• Bridgette  had racy photos Online, but the guy she dated was pretty okay with her. He later visited the house for extra time with her
• Chasity Thought she connected pretty well with the guy she was with. He was turned off by her profession in GoGo Dancing.  - She Felt like CRAP.
• Jane Cried about her Mugshot being shown, the guy didn’t think it was that bad because he was open minded about the situation. basically she had a bit of a wake up call. saying “we all have issues” … HA! cant take the heat yet you want someone to accept you for who you SAY you are.
• Leilani Refuses to accept that she’s got superficial standards. and her date didn’t care for it either because she couldn’t get past those things in the conversation.
• Avonte, is Straight forward about what she NEEDS. her problem’s that she does not care if she insults someone. she feels that if the person cant take it, and or Correct her up front if she’s wrong.  he’s not a man in her eyes. She also thinks it’s funny. yet she’ll never get what she “NEEDS” if she keeps it up.  Basically Steve told her if she’d rather have somebody to be abusive and treat her the way she treats men. she could go and be somebodies “Other Woman”.

I thought that was wild. I’ll likely be showing that to a friend of mine later on today.

After Watching The Show… (episode 2 to be exact)

  It made me think and ask the  question myself; “ What do you bring to the Table?” … Not only for the women I may encounter, but for myself as well. We All have personal issues that we may not share with everyone up front. Much of it is due to the fact that nobody wants to be rejected based on their issues.

With that said,  If you can’t share your world with the person you’re dating or are in a relationship with. You’ll likely break up.

I Myself am pretty much an open book about the thinks I like or dislike. or the things I do or may not do. I also have high expectations, and a number of Preferences that woman have called me “too Picky” about.  Yet, I’m not where I Should be or want to be in my own life.

I even question myself about How could I want a certain kind of woman, when I’m not what I may perceive to be. Also With myself being a Fat dude it’s hard to find a woman willing to talk to me. It’s also why I’ve settled for being in the friend zone in many cases with women I may like, or may have liked. Sometimes I think that Maybe if I were to live up to my own expectations and standards I could find a woman with a head on her shoulders.

If you have no legitimate reason for why you can or can’t be with someone. you need to check yourself. There’s got to be more substance Beyond who you are up front.

 

Sometimes you have to let go of your outlandish preferences to get what you NEED. I for one always look at the Crazy side of things first, then I think to myself what could I live with. Someday we’ll all have to settle for something. You tend to lose out when you’re worrying about the wrong things.

I Myself don’t want a woman with Kids / Tattoo’s or weird piercing That’s rare. will I find her.. probably not. I’ll have to settle for something I don’t like. it’s things like that Everyone has to come to terms with.

I remember reading so many unreal tweets Twitter tweeting to a trending topic called  “reason we cant be together”  so I started adding my own. and someone replied “Well what Is it do you Like?”. She though was Funny too. because I was giving reasons that made NO sense.

In reality. my preferences are not outlandish. maybe I am picky regarding what a woman looks like, but if there’s nothing beyond looks, then It’s she’s non applicable  ..lol I just had to say that..

To end this now, I’ll just say that I’ll continue to watch that show though I’ll be back with more on this subject. lol

My Weekend Was Great

Now all I need  to do is work on my weekdays.

Friday of course I went to that football game. Saturday I went to help put in an Air Conditioner at my Sisters place. I was supposed to head to best buy  Saturday but my dad drove straight home saying that he was gonna see about it “Tomorrow” smh…

After I got home, My sister asked me if I would take pictures at the bar,  Done That. I was paid for it too. a few folks asked how much I charge, I told a few I don’t. but too many folks were asking. so I just straight up said $175  Simply because my time is everything. I’m not a club hopper, nor a drinker.  so I’m good at staying focused on what I am there to do LOL..

Before that I got a chance to talk to My Favorite Hunnie, haven’t talked to her in a while… glad to have spoken to her. which reminds me, I have to send someone a message…. Man I love talking to her..

Well I stayed up till it was time to head to church. The Irony is that I walked In before everyone got there. I helped Ben Prepare for his first day of service. He was happy, yet frustrated at the same time. I decided to work the camera for him too. Before I got to it, his wife was actually trying to figure out how to turn night vision off. the Irony of it is, only a few seconds into the Start of the service, I found the button off switch and was ready to record. at that point I gave them both the thumbs up! lol

Service It was Amazing.  Turn out was great. I was glad to see some faces from high school, as well as meet new people. It will be great watching the church grow. I will stick to attending.  Next time I’m bringing my Bible with me!.

When I got home, I was thinking about calling my brother to see if he wanted to attend the WWE Event at the N.O. Arena, but I fell asleep …some time between when I fell asleep and the time I got up, I was awaken by my dad who got that bag for me.  he said it was $75 dollars, It was on sale just The day before .. THE DAY I WANTED TO GO!…  I would have gotten it myself but im glad he got it for me. I told him thanks I appreciate it.  It was needed and I’m happy to have it.

This week, I work on pictures & video.. Gotta make strides to succeed..

SMH at the Twitter Spam Victims

This is probably the 4th time where I’ve gotten the same  spam message from different users.  I tell these folks to change their passwords but they fail to do so. and even when they do. they fall for the same scam again.

Here’s why….
1. They’re  Clicking the link because they’re unsure it’s Real  or not. Truth is, They should Know Better.

2. The Link Takes you to a Fake yet functional feeling Twitter page as if you’re logged out.

Because of this, they just go ahead and attempt at logging in WITHOUT READING THE ADDRESS BAR which says THIS

THERE IS NO L IN TWITTER PEOPLE, READ BEFORE DOING ANY LOGGING IN… lol

Aside from that, I took Removed the “timed_out_session” from the bar and here’s what I got from “Twittler”

THAT my friends IS NOT TRUSTWORTHY! ..lol.. twitter should have the ability to to block addresses like that.

Dah Well. For the folks who click the links, check the address bar before you get your Information stolen by spambots.

Everybody else. JUST DON’T CLICK THE LINKS! . PLEASE!!..lol

Gotta get this footage up….

last night I went to record Edna Karr’s homecoming game. they had a mini parade b4 the game started,, kinda funny because all they did was go around in a circle. They could have at least been allowed to march up the road for about 3 blocks.  All in All the event was nice. I hope YouTube Accepts my clip of the homecoming show. it’s kinda long

Gotta Make Things Happen

I Just came back from Spiders from trying to cash a check, I couldn’t. for 1 my ID’s been expired since May, 2ndly That check was from Google, and Assume that the Cashier thought It was fake.  At this point I’ll be in route to get an ID and maybe go to a bank to make that happen.   Hopefully Monday. I would try spiders again but  i don’t think he’d do it.